What if you don’t have a Pinterest-perfect life?

As my body woke up from a night of slumber, so did the constant fear that rolled over and over in my stomach.  I had recently completed a three minute speaker promo video and I had shared it with my family and friends, including a lot of pastors and ministry leaders. I even shared it on Facebook.  I was unsure how people would receive it.  I felt vulnerable. Exposed.

I was terrified of being rejected.


Three good reasons to be thankful for weakness

“At some point in life, we must come to know who we are, like who we are, and be who we are.” – Lloyd Penley

I received this message on a beautiful Saturday morning via Facebook from an older, wiser pastor.  It challenged me.  It made me think about who I am, and if I like that person.  I’m blessed that in general, I like who I am.  I think I’m fun, humorous, creative, and a good friend.  But then I began to think about the part of me that gets her feelings hurt easily and who avoids conflict like the plague.  I began to think about my weakness.  I don’t like that part of me.


When your life is one great big beautiful mess

“Don’t fall. Please don’t fall” I pleaded with the beautiful china plate as I tried to hang it on the wall. I had recently made it with beautiful, sparkly jewels and I was hanging it on my colorful back porch. The plate hanger was hanging over a nail, but I was trying to “engineer” the two together (with a wire) so the plate wouldn’t fall off the nail and break.

And then…



God chooses and uses the weak, insecure, ill-equipped, and inadequate

I was minding my own business, sitting in my Bible study chair and reading through my journal.  God and I were talking about my leadership of my churches ladies’ ministry.  I fiercely love the women that I lead, but I struggle with the confrontation that is involved with leadership.  I’ve been growing as a leader in this area, but working through conflict is still extremely hard for my sensitive tender-hearted self.

I was reading back through my journal and seeing where God had sent people to encourage me in my leadership journey.  I was reading the kind and sweet things they had said when I suddenly burst out in tears.  A deep, agonizing prayer came from within me:  “GOD, I CAN’T DO THIS WITHOUT YOU.”



Am I the only one who is always struggling?

Some people make life look easy.  They face their hard days with smiles on their faces. They shepherd their large families with contented hearts.  They stare down cancer diagnoses with great faith. They handle rejection by leaning on God.  The way they carry themselves and face trials is admirable.

When I look at myself in comparison, well, I’m not weathering life’s storms with as much grace, faith, or strength.  Girls, I cry, a lot.  In the car.  On the floor curled up in the fetal position.  At the doctor’s office.  With my friends.  During worship. And at Harris Teeter.  I am personally responsible for the financial security of the Kleenex Corporation.



When God doesn’t “restore your soul” immediately

My family traveled to the mountains for Mother’s Day weekend.  When I looked at the rental website, I saw a cottage that was by a lake.  The pictures looked so peaceful and my overwhelmed soul longed for the peace that I saw in the lakeside beauty.  I quickly made a deposit and signed the rental agreement.   And then I looked forward with anticipation to sit by the tranquil lakeside, longing for the peace that it possessed.

“He leads me by still waters.  He restores my soul.” Psalm 23:2

restore your soul


God is not scared of our weakness

It’s hard to admit a weakness.  No, hard is not the right word.  Perhaps excruciating.  Terrifying.  Embarrassing.  I have experienced all of these emotions as I have shared with the world my struggle to believe that God will heal me. I can stand on a stage and teach God’s Word with great power, but then I go home and struggle to believe God’s Word.  It’s a weakness.

As a speaker and leader, people view me as a Christian woman who has it all together.  It has been so freeing to let people in on my secret…that I am far from perfect.  I am far from living up to God’s standards.  I’m far from living according to His Word.  I’m far from measuring up to the expectations of most of the people in my church.


But really, when are honest enough to admit it, we are all broken.  None of us measure up.


Your crushed spirit attracts God like a magnet

I was alone at Duke Children’s Hospital.  My 4 year old son had been whisked off to a private room and I was left alone with the nurse.  She delivered the devastating news that the colonoscopy had revealed that my son had Crohn’s Disease.  And then, in a moment that I will never forget, she went on to describe to me what his life would be like with this ravaging disease.  She described side effects of medications, how his appearance would be changed, and even how the hairs on his head would respond.  And then she handed me a little pamphlet and left me alone in the room.


Duke Children’s Hospital

Tears flooded my eyes as the gravity of the diagnosis settled upon me.  My precious son.  My only son.  A devastating disease and a precarious future.

I was crushed.


Sharing my weakness with you…5 minute video clip

Here is a 5 minute teaser for the Philippians Bible Study Week 3 video. The set up is that I am very vulnerable and I confess in a faith-filled room that I struggle to believe that God will heal my migraine headaches. It was a powerful moment. Many tears were shed and men and women alike walked out encouraged.   It goes along with the name of this blog: Celebrating Weakness.  Did you know that the same miraculous power that God sent to the church at Pentecost in Acts 1:8 is being perfected in our weakness?  Enjoy.

You can also go to my Vimeo channel at Vimeo.com/CelebratingWeakness to see a few more clips!  I will post the full video later this week.



Jesus came for the weak and heavy-laden

Hey, you!  You, hiding under the covers!  Yes, you!  You have pulled the covers up over your head, begging Jesus to take you home.  You are pleading with Jesus to just put an end to your misery.   Sadly, you may wondering if there was a way that YOU could just put an end to your misery.  You are at the end of your rope, and there is just nothing left to hold on to.

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